Give Up or Get Up ?
2019 for me symbolises getting up; on all levels 2018 gave me a thousand reasons to give up, in every sense of the word but, along came 2019. There is nothing significant in 2019 except that I choose it to be. Nothing significant about the shift from 8 to 9, not in the practical sense, but that I choose for there to be.
I titled this post Give up or Get up because I believe each and every one of us are presented with this choice, be it on daily basis where we have to choose between getting out of bed and going to work/ uni and lying in or, be in the larger context of life and giving up on our dreams and God’s promises because it got too hard, too bad or sad for you to keep going. In 2018, I almost made the decision to give up on both levels but, along came 2019. Along came a new day and a new day came an opportunity for new life, strength to fight and not succumb to the dead of the night.
Last year, and quite frankly, for a number of years, the growth that has occurred in me has come with immeasurable pain and agony that quite frankly, by the end of last year, 2018, I was 100% tired of. And so you can imagine my conversations with God, they usually included the phrases “ I’m in pain, I’m tired, I’m overwhelmed and I just want to give up cause this is way too hard” .
Yet he encouraged me- let me admit, most times the pain I felt led me to overlook majority of times he encouraged and strengthened me but, once I was able to lift my head up out of my pain and into his word and love for me; I got lost in his eyes, lost in his beautiful promises, plans and purposes that will stand true if I simply believed.
But again, if I’m being honest, this was never enough to get me to get up and stay up. I was comfortable in my pain; not because I enjoyed it but because I couldn’t possibly see how I could get up and have faith.
“Giving up will forever be easier than getting up, particularly in your walk with God.”
Why is that ?
Well, I’m currently at the place of conviction where I believe the biggest factor that determines a believers ability to get up is; Trust.
DO YOU TRUST GOD?
Maybe you’re not able to answer that question for yourself, you don’t quite know yet, you’d like to believe and say that you do but there’s a part of you that’s unsure. Well, let me save you that turmoil and lets focus on my answer.
No I do not trust God * gasps in Holy Pentecostal condemnation *
(at least I didn't when I started this journey of getting up)
After a lot of soul searching and acceptance, I have come to that conclusion that in certain areas of my life, I do not trust God. But, not trusting God is like yeast, when put in bread, it spreads to the whole dough. So, though it started off with not trusting God in these specific areas, because it wasn’t dealt with, it spread to the rest of my life, rapidly. And that’s what has brought me to the place I write to you from today. At 2 am on a Sunday night.
Now let me be clear, in my personal opinion, for the longest time, perhaps even until I picked up this pen to write, I believed that I DID have reasons not to trust God; disappointments, failures, loss – the list is endless. For you it might be that you’ve been dealing with specific issues and you can’t trust God because you couldn’t possibly understand why the hell you are in this situation, especially because you were “good” with God so, why did this happen ?
But I want to tell you a different truth. The truth of God’s love.
“When you don’t trust God , 99.9999999 of the reason why is because you haven’t fully grasped his love for you.”
Hmmmn tough right ? I know. I mean personally I thought I knew how deeply God loved me and was confident in his love. However, if that is true, why is it the case that when these inevitable circumstances of life occur; death, loss, health problems, disappointments, difficulties you name it, we almost automatically begin questioning whether or not God loves us.
For example we all know the mathematical truth 2+2=4. We will never question that, at least for those of us who aren’t the least bit interested in physics or metaphysical truths, we will not question it ( the rest of you can play along). So therefore, if there was ever an equation where 2+2 didn’t equal 4, we will never question the truth in itself. We will either state that the equation is wrong or that there was something added to the equation that is yet to be clarified, i.e. 2+2x=6 but, we will never question the truth of 2+2=4.
So, I propose this question, why is it the cased that though we state that God loves us is a truth that is central to our belief system, when there is an instance where God’s love doesn’t appear in our physical eyes, we question it in itself ?
Why don’t we recognise life for what it is?
Why don’t recognise that there is a devil that is constantly scheming to kill to steal and to destroy us ? Why do we question God’s love in these moment that he so graciously predicted and prepared us for ?
That’s because dear reader, God’s love for us is yet to become a truth to us.
And if you don’t hold God’s love as a truth to you, when life happens, even with your faith you wont trust God because how do you trust someone who you don’t believe loves you, let alone an invisible God you don’t believe loves you ?
And if you don’t trust God, what is your faith ?
Faith without trust is empty.
And if you have empty faith, how can you get up and face the world?
Thank you for plugging in and reading this post. If anything resonated with you, this week I encourage you to pick up your journal and note down all the reasons why you don’t trust God and why you don’t believe God loves you. Spend the week praying over these things and asking God to lift them off.
Comment below or message me via the LET’S TALK feature or on Instagram if you need help in going out identifying these areas in your life.
I also encourage you to join the sermon series by Transformation Church- RELEASE as it will set you up.