Okay Let Me Be Honest. #ENOUGHISENOUGH

Okay let me be  honest, these last few weeks, especially the last few days I have been being kind of ( KIND OF) a whiny, complainy, ungrateful daughter of God. 

And today, I just got a conviction. 

It's funny because I have been going to church and the theme has been about the privilege of being a daughter of God and I have keyed into it and been having conversations with my friends about it in terms of their lives. But in mine? I didn't really grasp the concept for myself, I mean I KNOW I am privileged as a child of God because I am promised Peace, Mercy, Joy, Salvation, the list is endless but have I been acting like I know or better still, have I been acting like I am grateful for the privilege? erm, no, not at all actually.

Lately in God's presence, I will whine, cry, complain, talk about how overwhelmed I am, how scared I am, anxious, how crazy I feel because I believe in him blah blah blah blah blah. I will do everything but Rejoice and Bless the Lord with my Soul as David tells us to do. And even when I did it wasn't genuine, it was just so I could stop listening to the slower worship songs that make me tear up in the library and instead listen to the more upbeat ones so I could at least get my work done. 

As I prayed each time I will ask God for strength, strength to believe, strength to stay the path, strength to wait on the promise. BUT, I will stay in my place of weakness, constantly dwell on how impossible it seems, how unlikely it may be and quite frankly, throw a pity party for myself and invite anyone who had the ears to listen. 

But today, about 30 minutes ago actually, ( after the stirring up through various conversations with my friends) I was like ENOUGH IS ENOUGH. I will BLESS THE LORD OH MY SOUL AND I WILL REJOICE AND BE GLAD IN IT. 

Many of us, God is waiting on us and we think we are the one's waiting on God. And this is because while we are busy whining, complaining, throwing  pity parties, being scared and anxious, God is like, okay Angels, when she/he begins to praise my name, pour down my blessings. Essentially, your pessimistic state of mind and posture is the only thing hindering God from moving on your behalf. 

You can read the Bible everyday, watch sermons every hour, constantly play the latest Hillsong Album or tune into Praise and Worship Jam sessions BUT, if you don't make up your mind within yourself that enough is enough, you are not moving anywhere. 

This is a letter to myself as much as it is a letter to anyone reading this, you have to say enough is enough. 

How many more nights will you cry yourself to sleep ? 

How many more times will you complain to everyone and anyone around you ? 

How many more sessions will you spend in God's presence complaining about what he didn't do/hasn't done  /isn't doing ?? 

Will you Shut Up and Bless the Lord ? 

You are privileged to be alive 

You are privileged to have clothes to wear and food to eat EVEN IF YOU ARE BROKE RIGHT NOW. 

You are privileged to go to school EVEN IF EXAM SEASON IS OVERWHELMING 

You are privileged to have a promise for God EVEN IF THE WAIT IS LONG . 


Love always, 



Lately I’ve been intentionally making space and time for getting into God’s Presence and there’s been nothing like it especially in the midst of exam season.

In this season it’s so easy to speak like the rest of the world and say things like “ I can’t do it” “ I’m not ready” “ I can’t come and die abeg” “I cannot come and Kill myself” “ MI O LE WA KU” ( my personal favourite if I’m being honest ), but no, pause and think about what you’re  saying.

Do the words you’re speaking reflect the stillness you receive in his presence? Do they reflect the words of his promises like,”You are the head and not the tail” , “ I have plans of good and not of evil for you, to bring you to an expected end” “ I will give you exceedingly abundantly above all you could ever ask for and dream of” and, one I recently became aware of “ He is my champion defender, there is no risk of failure with God, so why will I let worry paralyse me ?!!” . 

This is a super short post because all I want to say to you is STOP! STOP, STOP, STOP. Stop speaking negative words over yourself, over your destiny and your future. The words of the tongue are very powerful,  as your  African Mother or Aunt have probably repeatedly told you, and if they haven’t hear it from me, THE WORDS OF THE TONGUE ARE POWERFUL, which is a Bible verse incase you were wondering. Just quit speaking about your exams negatively EVEN IF you feel like you’re not ready, EVEN IF, all your friends are doing so, after all it is by Grace through Faith that anything is possible so don’t belittle your Faith by feeding your own self with negativity and don’t deny God’s Grace by speaking based on your own strengths and ability . 


Love always,