A lot of us hide our emotions and that’s what I was doing for a long time, hiding my emotions from the people around me and from myself. I mean I’d tell my friends the usual stuff, How I was sad about Oxford, usual family stuff all that, but I never spoke about the real things that kept me up at night and I won’t speak about it now either. But what I will say is that you can hide from your friends, your family, your boyfriend but you can never hide from God. When I recently begun to share how I really felt with God and those around me, I realised that I had many unresolved issues deep within me that I had suppressed all in the name of being strong. And as a result, I never healed right and that has become very evident in my life today. But GUESS WHAT ? There is always security in knowing that when you fall, he will catch you.
When people say that, they normally say it in the context of sin of which is true and is very important to realise BUT, today I want to talk to you about your heart and the state of your soul.
So today I ask you, what happened?
Did you lose someone?
Are you hurting and broken?
Did you experience disappointments?
Do you feel like your family is falling apart?
Are you scared your Parents are about to get a divorce?
Do you feel lonely ?
Do you feel like your friends don’t really know/understand you ?
I ask these questions because once upon a time, my answer to most of these questions was yes and probably still is yes to a few of them.
When I started this website I was in a dark and lonely place, I was hurting and broken inside, and I was tired of bearing my emotions by myself. I started this website because I knew I was not alone and I wanted to make sure you, my dear reader, knew that too. I was in a very weak and unfamiliar place and all I knew how to do was run to God. And he showed me the light. This sounds cliche but this is who God is, he is the light in the midst of darkness so don’t expect any less. And that’s what he did, he shed light to my path, gave me new perspectives, lifted me from the midst of darkness and brought me into the light, he crowned me with jewels, healed my scars and gave me feet so I could walk again. And that’s what I’m doing, I’m walking again and you, my dear reader, can do the same.
Without going into detail, I am at a point in my life where I can’t but be real about my emotions to my close friends and with God because I have realised that there is no way forward but through this. And all I want to tell you today is to do the same. This world is broken, it’s dark and it’s wicked but at the end of the tunnel, there is light, whether dim in your eyes or bright in your eyes, there is light at the end of the tunnel and that light is God. The sad truth, however, is that many of us see the light and turn around towards the darkness.
So let me ask you; What happened to you that is keeping you from God ?
Often, we run away from God because we think, if he is really God, why would he let xyz happen to me. But as I said, this world is broken, it’s wicked and empty and that’s exactly why we should run to God and not away from him. You might ask me, but God created all things so why can’t he just fix it? And my answer to that is, he already has. He sent his Son Jesus to die for your sins on the cross so you could have access to the world that is to come where there will be no tears nor sorrows. That being said, Jesus also died so you can have access to that world whilst you live in this one. Jesus died so that you can experience life here on Earth as it is in Heaven. But, God never promised that you will not have troubles, he only promised that he will walk with you through the troubles so that when you are in the valley of the shadow of death ( earth quite frankly), you will not fear. And this is what makes us different from the non -believer. It is not that we will not go through struggles and that life will be bliss but that when we go through it, we will go through it with assurance and security in the fact that a world without hardship, without pains, without sorrows, without poverty, without heartache etc., awaits us.
I’m making this post shorter than usual because all I want to say today is that there is a world on the other side that awaits us and we cannnot forfeit our reward ( Heaven) because of our shortsightedness. This world is hard, it’s tough, so dear reader, hold on to Jesus like he is your Oxygen, don’t run away from the light, run towards the light and watch as it becomes brighter and brighter in your eyes. Don’t limit yourself to your past, do not define yourself by your situation, do not live off of your emotions but hold on so dearly to the one who is and is to come.