Becoming Head Girl
And we’re back!
For those of you that noticed the website went offline, that's because I’m pretty much a novice and still getting a hang of this so, bear with me.
Today I’d like to give you a bit of context into why I serve the God I serve.
Many of you may know or have heard that I was the School Captain of Ashford School ( my A-Level school) but many of you don’t really know how and why that was such a big deal for me, so here is the story.
following our graduation from Day Waterman, my friends and I were rather excited to be moving on to the next stage of our lives; Sixth Form. This particular day, we were talking about our schools and if I recall correctly, our hopes and dreams concerning it. Out of nowhere, I mention to my friends “You guys, I'm running for Head Girl". It was such a joke to my friends but I was very serious about this decision and for many reasons.
Many say it is just a title and on many levels, I agree but for me, it was more than that. When I was in Atlantic Hall, from year 7, becoming a perfect was something a lot of us aspired to be, because of how much responsibility they were given and how much respect they gained and so this stuck with me. Unfortunately, I left in year 9 and when I got to Day Waterman in year 10, prefects were chosen in the first term and so being new, well that didn't really work out for me. So when I made that statement to my friends, even though I’m pretty sure I didn’t know what I was thinking when I said it, it was birthed from a subconscious desire that I had carried with me for a long time.
Before I begun at Ashford, my mom prayed a prayer over me in which these particular words stuck with me and were pretty much the words I continuously spoke over myself during the course of my two years there - “The gods of Ashford will bow down to your God”.
When I started, I really wasn’t aware how powerful the words of my mouth were because everything that happened next was beyond me. Between my first two terms, I had been transformed from a girl who was to shy to answer questions in the midst of people who I deemed smarter and better than me, to a girl who won both Ashford and Kent Young Enterprise Public Speaking Awards. From a girl who shied away from any and every intellectual debate ( ngl I probably still do ) to a girl who was going for debating competitions every other week. From a girl who had never been given any real position of responsibility to a key player in Amnesty International, peer mentor and Marketing Director of a Young Enterprise company. God had really elevated me.
Come third term, I was made perfect #Mamawemadeit, however now the question was could I make senior prefect let alone top four, let alone School Captain. In the next few weeks, I will be discouraged by teachers, friends and much more but I will stand my ground knowing the God that I serve. I heard things like “ Person A was born to be School Captain” “ Are you sure you don't want to just go for House Captain? Or even Team Leader?”. I must state here that at the same time, I also had a lot of support from many teachers and close friends but I’ve come to realize that in times when the devil is trying to bring you down, your opponent's voice will be the loudest. So, long story short, after a few weeks of applications, interviews and many conversations with various people, I was made the FIRST BLACK SCHOOL CAPTAIN of Ashford School.
This was an overwhelming experience for me and I personally just want to thank everyone ( you know your selves) who encouraged me, rooted for me and prayed for me during it all, it made all the difference. However, I am writing to you, whoever is reading this yet again. I learned many things from this 'miracle' in my life and I think it's important that I share what I'm learning through my journey, after all, that's what this is all about!
So, let's crack on...
- If you can dream it, then you can do it! - This is something I heard recently and has really resonated with me because it's so easy to just dream and visualize things but we never actually go through with it because we fix our eyes on the obstacles that could potentially stop us. But, if you serve the same God that I serve; The pioneering God, the God who made the sun stand still on behalf of Joshua, the very God that said in Isaiah 55: 9 " As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts", nothing is impossible. So, don't just dream and leave it at that, take your eyes off the obstacles and get active!
- The Words you speak over your life and the words others have spoken over your life that you chose to believe, matters - I say this because in this journey, I have experienced both positive and negative words being spoken over me and I have spoken both negative and positive words about myself. I found that the more I focused and listened to the negative words over my life, the more I actually spoke negative words over my own life and inevitably, the more negativity sprung forth from my life. As Deuteronomy 30: 19-20 says, "The Lord has given you the choice between life and death, between blessings and curses. ...... chose life". Be careful in what you chose to listen to and speak over your life, it is more important than it seems.
- Never let your confidence be based on who you are, let it always remain steadfast in who God is, that way it will never be shaken - Philippians 4:13 say's " I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me", this verse explicitly shows that never in your own strength can the impossible happen, it is through Christ alone that hope springs eternal.
- Have a word/bible verse/song for each season of your life - In my case, it was the word that my Mom spoke over me, I held onto it, I prophesied it each time I felt my faith was shaky, I wrote it on post-it's and put it up on my wall and every time I woke up and saw it or anytime I said it, my faith was stirred up.
This post is rather lengthy but, I hope your faith has been stirred up because if he can do it for me, he most definitely can do it and more for you. He is the unchangeable God!